if only i were to be loaded with money then there won't be quarrels. if only i am an irresponsible chap so i can hack care whatever school work that's piling up. if only i can live on being a loner so i can be free from being so concern/busybody. if only i need not see myself in front of the mirror so i would not be bother about my fatness. if only i was able to be good at picking up new stuff so i could get along well with new things new people. if only my heart was wide enough to accept all flaws. if only i don't have such a scar in my past so i won't be fearful of such thing. if only i can lead my life forever being happy so i won't be so miserable about my life. if only i could bring back the past so i won't regret. if only there were a second chance to everything. if only theres if only.
if only i could give up on everything that i've been holding so hard to. why must i always learn to do things the hard way.
